Sunday, May 31, 2020

Now Rowing Forward


We can't wait to move on. We've been stucked for some time, and we want to move forward and be able to live our life's next chapter. A life where mystery meets uncertainty. A life of ups and downs -- our current reality.

Today, I've seen how we go few steps backward. When the pandemic striked, we freeze, we can hardly move, we go on reminiscing our past life. We remember the good old times and learned from the bad times. We have time travelled and it just feel so good.

Rowing on a small boat from my last year's retreat on a beach, was one of the most solemn and soulful experience ever. That gave me a lot of realization about how I chose to live my life. That was a preview of how to live and survive in silence; without a crowd and just a moment of detachment and social isolation.


As I looked at the horizon from afar, where the blue skies meets the sea, indeed sky is the limit when it comes to our life's desires and realizations. There's a lot of opportunities and foresight waiting for us to be discovered in total silence.

As I walked closer to the shore, the horizon seem endless, even when I reach the deepest of the sea. I then realize that when a big wave is coming to hit me, I may either swim as fast as I could back near the shore, or just go with the flow as calmly as I could.

Life's like that. When something big hit us, like an overwhelming challenge or adversity, we can choose how to react; either we panic or stay calm and focused to make the best action and not get drowned.

Fast forward to today, a year after, comes the Pandemic. I remember how I enjoyed the silence and solemnity of a place where I said I could survive on that kind of environment for a long time.

How many of us could live in the absence of a noisy and distracted world? How many of us can enjoy being detached to worldly posessions and relationships? How many of us can survive being alone, having just enough and with no luxuries, but only a natural world of purity and simplicity?


Today, as people and community have started to mobilize again after isolation, we have just learned a tough lesson and a deeper awareness of our being. That we can indeed live alone for some time, that we can depend on ourself for our own happiness. That we are responsible and in control of our life -- our destiny.

Life has now brought us to different era; a different future we never imagined. This time, we are not only moving on or moving foward. We are now rowing forward to the direction of our will; our life purpose. We are the captain, and in control of our destiny. The director of our own reality.

© 2020 Del Cusay